What An Amazing Week

This last week has been the best i've had in a long while.  My boyfriend came to visit from Norway, really wish he didn't have to go yesterday...

I took him home to Bristol to meet my parents, my brother and my grandma,  all of whom thought he was really nice and enjoyed his company! :)  I gave him a tour of Bristol and the surrounding area as I also drove to Clevedon and Weston-Super-Mare, despite it being a dark and wet day, we had a wonderful time and he took plenty of pictures!  I let him have his first taste of fish and chips from a chip shop!  I can't believe they don't have any in Norway!  It was a pity that they didn't taste too brilliant though, however I think he enjoyed it even so.

I then brought him back to Southampton where I gave him a quick tour and he stocked up on cheap games!   (Cheap for a Norwegian anyway!)  We also went to Bella Italia, my favorite restaurant, of which he thoroughly enjoyed, so much so he made me promise that we would make a point of going there again every time we visit England once i've moved to Norway!  Yippee!

It was so hard, yet again, to say goodbye to him at the airport, I stayed until I could no longer see him after he'd walked through Security.  It literally feels like my heart has been ripped to a million shreds now that he's not here.  I've had a complete breakdown this weekend.  So much worse than normal, I guess it could be because i'm now used to seeing him in my apartment with me, rather than me visiting Norway instead.  I just can't seem to hold myself together, I knew I was going to be bad this weekend once he'd gone but I had no idea that I would be this bad.  Hopefully i'll be a bit better once i'm back at work tomorrow.

Really not looking forward to starting back at work though.  I mean I really love my job, don't get me wrong!  I've just gotten used to having the time off now!

I've now got 1 month to finish the majority of my work.  I have a funny feeling that this month is going to go super quick, too quick for my own liking.

I booked my tickets to Norway for the summer yesterday, 13 weeks and 6 days until I see Thomas again! <3

And before I go...did I mention i'd quit World of Warcraft?  No?  ...I can't believe it either ;)

Finally!

Today I finally finished Chapter 1 for my dissertation.  It's not as great as I would have liked it but I think it meets all of the requirements so that's the main thing!  I'm just so glad that i've finally got it written.  That now means that I have 2 more chapters left to write and then my conclusion, so about 7000 words in totals - eek!  I should be able to get it done by easter though, as long as I write it at my own pace and don't rush it.  If I rush it I'm just likely to get writers block again.  My aim is to have it finished by the easter holidays anyway, so basically by the 1st of April.  Should be easy enough :)

As well as my dissertation I have to write my CV - which won't take long at all, only a few hours!  My aim is to do that once my boyfriend goes back to Norway.  Then that means that my careers assignment is completely finished.

Then I just have my group project to focus on, i have to write a few pieces about what we did and how we did it, so that can easily be done one weekend.  Then I have to write a reflective essay on how I personally think we worked as a team - that will just take a few hours also.

So in my opinion, i'm doing quite well!  In a months time I should have all my work for my final year completed!  I am definitely looking forward to the easter holidays!

Tomorrow i'm meeting up with an old school friend for a couple of hours which should be nice, I haven't seen her for a couple of years now.  not sure what we're going to do though, I don't have any money :(

I can't believe that in 3 days time my boyfriend will actually be here....it feels so unreal!  I'm so excited you wouldn't believe, I can't wait to just be able to touch him again, to smell him, to see him lying next to me when I wake up.  Jeg elsker ham så mye <3

A Brand New Day!

What a turn around! After such a gloomy weekend i've been the happiest today that i've been in a very long while, despite being absolutely exhausted from the weekend and not being able to sleep last night.  It's like I have a spring in my step!

Last night my boyfriend came back after realising something was up and he managed to cheer me up completely :) he's perfect that way, knows exactly how to make me smile again :)  I guess that's why I feel so happy today, he made me realise that i've been stressing too much over my work and I shouldn't let it get to me at all, made me realise i've been trying to cram so much work in at once when I can only do so much.  Silly me and my high expectations!  So because of that, i've not done any work at all today, decided to give myself a complete rest so that I can start on it again tomorrow.

So i'd just like to say a huge huuge thank you to my boyfriend...Thomas Johan.  You make me feel like the happiest girl alive, you are my world, my everything.  Jeg elsker deg.

Day 3

Today has been yet another down day.  Been in complete agony all day, no thanks to mother nature.  I've actually not been able to move more than enough times throughout the day, worst i've had yet.  I've also ripped my hands to shreds because I had to hand wash some of my clothes earlier, can barely move them at all.

I feel like a complete failure as i've only managed to write half of chapter 1 this weekend.  I'm going to attempt to write some more after this but I doubt i'll get anywhere, not while I'm this down, I just can't think.

I just need someone to talk to, cheer me up, take my mind off things.  Was looking forward to talking to my boyfriend this evening but as soon as he came home he went straight back out.  So I guess i'll just bottle it all up inside like I used to.  Or who knows, maybe writing it here will make me feel better without realising it, I don't know.  I just really wish the next few days aren't anywhere near as bad as these last 3 have been.

Day 2

So i've had the worst thing that could've happened to me this weekend, i've got writers block.  I seriously feel like I worked myself out yesterday writing my careers essay.  I've tried to make a start on my dissertation chapter 1 but I really haven't got that far.  Ok so i've managed to write my abstract, my introduction and 600 words towards chapter 1, but I need to write at least 1700 more words.  I just can't bring myself to do it though, i've got a total mind blank!  So now I'm just trying to find something to do that will relax me so that perhaps I can have another try before I go to bed tonight, if not then i'll just hope that tomorrow I'm in a working mood as if I don't get chapter 1 finished this weekend, I will feel really disappointed with myself.

I have managed to clean my apartment this morning though, as soon as I managed to drag myself out of bed.  I just lead there for nearly 3 hours this morning, wide awake, just not wanting to move.

Still missing the boyfriend too, can't wait until I can speak to him again, he's the only one that gets me through these tough times :/

So here's the updated to do list for this weekend, lets just hope tomorrow is a better day.

• Finish Chapter 1 of my Dissertation!
• Watch the rest of the Documentaries I have left to watch for Chapters 1 + 2 of my Dissertation

Day 1

So we've reached the end of my first 'day of work'.  And I have had quite an accomplishment.  I finished my career's essay!  All I'm waiting for now is to hear back from the Norwegian events companies that I emailed so that I can use what they say as a reference (hopefully) I'm waiting to hear the average working hours and salary etc...  So..I'm practically finished!  Quite proud of myself to be honest.  So hopefully i'll be able to get through quite a few of my things on my to do list tomorrow.  Here's what's left:

• Clean my apartment (Weekly Clean!)
• Start Chapter 1 of my Dissertation
• Finish Chapter 1 of my Dissertation!
• Watch the rest of the Documentaries I have left to watch for Chapters 1 + 2 of my Dissertation

I'm feeling quite optimistic at the moment.  Work wise anyway...kind of struggling without my boyfriend though to be honest, he's only gone for a few days to visit his family but it hurts like hell :/  Even if I am going to see him next weekend.  Ah well, I guess I just have to stay strong and keep my head down in my work.  I'm sure this weekend will fly by.

And so it begins...

This weekend for me is titled 'Work Weekend'  Even though...weekends are meant to be for fun and the week days for work...  I have an essay to write and my first chapter for my dissertation!  I think I should be able to get all of this done, especially as my boyfriend has gone to visit his grandparents for the weekend.  A lonely weekend for Kirsty!  So to try and fill my time I am going to try and get all of my work done so that I have a free week when my boyfriend visits next weekend.  I can't believe he's going to be here in just 8 days time!!

So my to do list for this weekend is:

• Finish my Careers Essay
• Clean my apartment (Weekly Clean!)
• Start Chapter 1 of my Dissertation
• Finish Chapter 1 of my Dissertation!
• Watch the rest of the Documentaries I have left to watch for Chapters 1 + 2 of my Dissertation

A busy busy weekend lined up for me!  As my weekend always starts on a Friday as I don't have any Uni or Work on these days, so far I have written half of my Careers Essay, so that's a promising start.  Hopefully i'll have the essay finished by tonight!  It seems much easier than I first thought, especially as it's just me writing about what I want to do when I finish University.

I've just said goodbye to my boyfriend until Sunday so...let the work begin.  I'm going to have a quick lunch then try and finish my careers essay, I shall keep you posted.